What’s Done is Done

Today I woke up all EMO nshit, well actually that mess started long before but whatever. I decided I will pick my theme song for the day and of course, rock came through for me. Been listening to Limp Bizkit’s ‘Boiler’ on loop and one of the many lines kicking my ass is ‘What’s done is done, you just leave it alone and don’t regret it’…pretty straightforward, innit???

Oh, I am going through one of those ‘fuck it’ phases, and the only record of phases in my life it has beaten is the ‘i wish i was born a boy’ phase. We all do, say, think and heck knows what else a bunch of things that WILL bite us in the eternal eclipse zone of our anatomy. Right now I am riding on the SS Enterprise of ‘shits’ and odds are I probably won’t get off without a few bruises especially to my ego.

In this year alone, I have and will have to answer questions, queries and WTF’s from family, friends and mortal frenemies. The first round with a ‘Frenemy’ caught me a little off guard but you know what? I am now armed *metaphorically, don’t send NCIC my way!* and ready to take said being on…and because what’s done is done, I choose to not regret my actions…I choose to ride this out till the gauge hits ‘E’…I choose to sieve out the BS and I choose to plead the fifth wherever I feel its necessary.

My actions have and will affect dozens of lives and you know what? I choose to leave it alone…In this lifetime I swore to only be answerable to the parentals and God…everyone else is on a permanent ‘need to know’ basis. If I don’t feel like explaining shit to you, then guess what? You are free to build a town full of speculations, rumors and fast conclusions in your head and rule it!

Of all my mistakes and fuck-ups, this will be the most beautiful, most epic and most kickass of them all…would I change a thing? Mostly not…However, I refuse to let anyone treat my mistake like the plague, I refuse to let people with zero rated interest in my life milk this for all the drama it comes with and most importantly, those that don’t want to get on board can just abandon ship and swim the F away!!!

In this life, you must choose who you are answerable to…you must choose who is worth the fight…heck, you must choose a worthy opponent to fight (no need to waste your energy on non-factors)…you must embrace your mistakes, rehabilitate them and keep it moving…most importantly, don’t regret it….A life without mistakes is as good as watching the Paint Drying Channel – A flipping bore!!!!

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Published by: shikutip

Mummy to Amaliah, pretty decent creative, I am the current cloud pointing champ and an undeniable lover of my fam, my friends, my rugby and my sanity (although I let that one get away)...

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2 thoughts on “What’s Done is Done”

  1. I have learnt that you never know your true friends or discover your truest strengths until you find yourself in shit so first, in weird way, thank God for shit..i agree, life without fuck ups is dead flat and those who go around celebrating yours i kid you not hv hidden envies and or fuck ups and have no brains or wit to sort out their own so talking abt yrs is non-brain requiring…and u can’t blame them… its ok to fire them infact they’ll apologise to themselves on yr behalf..but its also ok to ignore their words and smile back….its a great time to de clatter meaningless associations- girl you have too much good going on you need to be celebrating your life as this new chapter sets in…don’t need to give some things attention…don’t worry too much abt tomorrow trust me it has a way of coming together..as for the true friends you have..maximize on them and let them know they are appreciated

    THIS GOT ME THROUGH THE LAST THREE YEARS – I woke up to the news that my life is only mine and i can only share it with someone/people but not give it to them – Even when i share it, there are limits & expectations i stopped being shy communicating them!!! I learnt to know when to shut out the world and stop letting them define me and i also learnt to not react to everything–sometimes when i hear them i begin to sing…in my head ans see that famous screen saver of a kid in dippers dancing all over the screen…YES I DO… I’m no perfect Christian but i put my trust in God and myself, trust my instincts and intuitions. I’m not saying it will work for you but it feels daaaaamn good.

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  2. Ok, whatever mistake it was you made, let it go. It’s never that serious if it didnt kill you or anyone else for that matter. I agree, it is your life, people will talk.

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